Typophile Film Festival

Typophile Film Festival 5 Opening Titles from Brent Barson on Vimeo.

It's awesomely cool, right??

Kerjayaku Model

Dulu. Salah satu cita-cita aku nak jadi model. Nak pakai baju cantik sambil jalan buat muka serius macam tak peduli orang sekeliling sebab macam paling lawa paling hot.

Kalau nak jadik model, kena tinggi, kaki panjang, muka tak cantik takpe asal unik, kulit tak putih takpe asal cantik takde jerawat, and ramai orang kata kena kurus, and kena konfiden.

Bersungguh-sungguh aku berlatih dari kecik jalan macam model, dabik dada macam model, hayun tangan macam model, kepala kena chin up macam model, senyum sombong macam model. Semua lah macam model!

Setelah masuk umur 18 tahun.... aku masih kurus. Yay! Lulus! Tapi.... aku tak tinggi-tinggi, kaki tak panjang-panjang, lepas kena chicken pox muka ada jerawat la pulak....

Kawan baik aku kata, "ko mana boleh jadi model, ko ada lesung pipit! Lesung pipit ni dah dikira cacat tau tak? Model kena perfect. Tak boleh cacat. Haha"
Adik pulak kata, "nak jadi model gigi kena lawa, gigi berterabur ada hati nak jadi model. Hahaha"

Haih. Isk isk isk. Terkubur lah cita-cita masa kecil aku begitu sahaja....

Tapi...tapi...nak tau tak? Masa sekolah SSI, ada pertandingan model kat asrama, lawan antara dorm, model model mesti junior yang baru masuk form 1. Masa ini aku senior dah.

Dan..... tempat pertama, kedua and ketiga semua junior junior dorm aku yang bolot weyh!!

Dan..... dan..... cuba teka siapa yang bersungguh-sungguh melatih mereka berjalan macam model?? Siap letak kayu penyapu kat pinggang tahan dengan tangan tuh! Posture, posture kena tegak beb. hehehe

Funny...how time flies. Now dah tak terasa nak jadik model pun. Sebab dah sedar diri. Hahahaha. Nonetheless, i still love watching any catwalk/model/fashion show. Aku suka tgk keyakinan mereka mereka yg berjalan di khalayak orang ramai.

Yes, Confidence attracts me.

And i guess, ade hikmah for everything. Yes, i'm short, i'm pimply, gigi berterabur, kurus keding pulak tu, but Hanafee loves me. *winks* Terima kasih Tuhan.

*smiles* cita-cita korang dulu nak jadi apa?

Kunci Kegembiraan

adalah tidak peduli. tidak buang masa fikir risau gundah gelana. sayangi diri sendiri. barulah tak makan hati. barulah tak kurus melidi.

sekali lagi, kunci kegembiraan, adalah tidak peduli.

The Last Two Months

The last two months have probably been the most testing times for me. I have became a visitor in my own blog, and im glad Sabrina has been doing a good job in terms of keeping it as lively as possible. I havent been able to, Im not as lively as i used to be, i guess thats what happens when a part of you dies and withers away.

I wanted to write a scribe for my mother, unable to, it lacks.... perfection. So unless it becomes perfect, you wont be seeing it anytime soon on this blog. So just a short update for everyone. Here are some things I've learned in the past two months:-

1. Your true friends are the ones who help bury your mother.
   
2. You can lose a brother when you lose the will to help them.
   
3. Brotherhood is to be earned
4. The people that cry for you loves you, but the people who hold you when youre crying doesnt love you less
5. There is nothing more amazing than being able to sit up and write.
   
6. Dont stay in bed too long, the world goes on but no one does your work for you.
7. Love yourself most, no one does it better than you.
   
8. Smile
9. Dance even if its just in your room
10. Smile
11. Never believe it when your doctor tells you "it wont hurt one bit"
12. Be worried when your doctor looks at your charts and says "Uh-oh!"
13. Be even more worried when he looks at your x-ray and says "Ooopppsss!"
    
14. Even if it hurts, hug someone
15. Even if it hurts, run a bit
16. Cry if you feel like it.
17. and lastly, if people ask you, "Are you okay?" smile and say "Would you be okay if you were in my place?"

So I leave you with that, not to bum anyone out, I will be writing a tribute to my mother, i just have been dwelling on many of the drafts, if anything, like i said, it needs perfection.

One of the things I wanna do....

before i turn 25 is...sending an e-mail to Hanis Zalikha. Regardless of whether she would reply me. it would be nice if she did. *smiles*

inibelogsaya.blogspot.com

Have fun reading hers!!

Dangerously Straightforward

Cukup sudah kuberikan cintaku
Cukup sudah rasa ini untukkmu
Mati sudah hati ini padamu
Mati sudah hasrat ingin bersamamu

Pernahkah kau merasa
Hatimu Hampa
Pernahkah kau merasa
Hatimu Kosong

Buang saja semua kata cintamu
Buang saja semua kata maafmu
Hancur sudah hati ini padamu
Hancur sudah hasrat ingin bersamamu

Rap:
Pernahkah, pernahkah kau merasa
Dikala siang datang terasa gelap gulita
Tiada cahaya hanya gelap hitam dan kelam
Tak ada lagi suka tak ada rasa
Pernahkah, pernah pernah pernah pernahkah, pernahkah kau merasa
Disaat diri terlelap
Meski gemuruh kian beradu slalu mengaduh
Kau tetap terlelap dalam tidurmu

Dangdut:
Maafkan aku sayangku
Bukan maksudku menyakitimu, mengkhianatimu
Ampuni aku sayangku
Cukup katakan aku tak lagi mencintaimu

p/s: Hampa Hatiku by Ungu.

Surgery

Hanafee's going for surgery today. this morning. what saddens me the most is i am not allowed to come to kl. what saddens me the most is he's not telling me which hospital. what saddens me the most is he even told his brothers not to tell me the hospital's name. what saddens me the most is i was so far far away when his mother passed away.. and now i am still far far away when he's in pain. i am so sad he doesnt wanna share his pain with me... selfish selfish selfish!! as much as he's hurting now.. it hurts me too that i cant be by his side...now i am hating this long distance relationship we have.

ok he just called me, and his surgery is at 10 am. and i am still in masai??!! *crying*