Far Away

I'm stressed.
I'm worried.

I believe I can do it.
A or not.
I care no more.

Right now.
I miss you.
Seth.

Monthly Summary

This past few weeks (since mid july to mid august) has truly been a roller coaster ride and if you have been wondering, currently i am at my lowest. Im not one to whine but it sucks sometimes, the high points include my Summer being with me for like a few weeks, feels days, i wish i could keep her longer... wait let me rephrase that... i wish i could keep her forever :D (dah dah berenti senyum kamu tu... nampak taring) hehe....

Work has been hectic, i never knew how similar a researcher and a kuli batak are. The only difference is that a kuli batak gets paid 800 and a researcher gets paid 900. I come home tired almost everyday. But i have this weekend to look forward to. Mama kata kalau banyak benda tak elok jadi it means something good and great is going to happen for you. *i wish it happens this saturday!!!*

Im whining and rambling, by the end of the day, i kinda like my working world with my summer with me. I would work and she would bother me occasionally and then she'd say "Ok lah taknak kacau daddy keje... i love you byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" to be honest i could imagine the two little "tarings" that comes a light when she smiles (I am seriously honest when i say i love your tarings hehe)

hari tu masa mama datang for my convocation, i reported to my mother... "mama tgk sab ni mama.. dia nak cabut taring dier..."

Mama kata (ehem ehem) "eh kenapa??? kan manis ader taring tu... itu orang panggil taring pemanis... nanti takde taring dah tak manis.." *Nods proudly*

i love being tired.

I love going home from work and half way home ill get a msg "abang... abang kat maner??? Mommy lapar :(" and i would rush home. And when i get home and i change and i rush down and we have dinner and then we talk and we laugh and fall in love.

I like being tired one moment and then not so tired one moment.

because she's around.

I find it easier to be happy... I miss you....

the bad stuff... well i prefer to forget them anyway hahaah bye people.

Happy Left-Handers Day!!

Pagi tadi dalam teksi terdengar sesuatu yang menarik dari radio
membuatkan aku dan dia terpandang sesama sendiri dan tersenyum
eceh eceh
hehe.
tapi betullah. cerita benar.

Anyway, deejay dalam radio itu cakap,
Hari ini adalah hari istimewa untuk sesiapa yang kidal.

=)

Happy Left-Handers Day, Seth!! My boyfriend Seth is a left-hander.

And kepada kawan kawan yang kidal,
Selamat Tangan Kiri!!
(Cam pelik bunyinya. Betul ke dalam bm begitu? Ntah)

Tahukah anda??
Everyone is a Left Hander in Left Hand, West Virginia.
(jumpe kat google. Macam tak percaya tapi maybe betul kot)

=)

Perkara 121 (1A) Perlembagaan Persekutuan

Due to recent times, this article of the constitution has been questioned a few times over the years. I think it is outrageous that anyone would do anything to question the authority of this article. First and fore most let me reiterate the reason for this post.

On 9th August a forum held by the Lawyers Council (Majlis Peguam) was scheduled to be held with the forum basically questioning the above mentioned article. So for those who do not understand what is the big deal, well basically the article says that the Syariah Court is not under any jurisdiction whether The High Court or the Sabah Sarawak High Court and that it acts on its own jurisdiction which should be respected by all forms of legal body in the country. This is to ensure that all Islamic matter will be handled by the Syariah court without interference from any other party be it civil and high court. This allows for a surmountable amount of legal power for muslims. So why are people afraid of it? Well most non-muslims find that getting out of Islam is not as easy as they got in it. So those who are trying to get out of Islam cannot seek help from civil lawyers but rather a syariah lawyer and all Syariah lawyers are definitly not going to go against the article.

I think it is sheer lunacy and idiocy to go against this article of the constitution and i think its a good thing the forum was stopped rather than allowing it to proceed further and i think it is a good thing that it happened.

Over the years there have been countless questions regarding the Malay issue and the Islam Issue. Both of course being treated in the same manner. Over the years we have always compromised the Malay Issue. We allowed for the meritocracy system and we allowed non-malays to enter malay institution such as MARA and such, over the years we have compromised. In 1988 this particular article which was included in the 1957/58 write up was amended and at the time everyone saw it as a step back for islam and yet everything went on as usual. 20 years later that want us to take another step back.

I am angered at this, only for one reason. If there was no idea of social contract between the three races in our society i wouldnt have minded. But our founding fathers sat down on one table and decided that the indians and chinese will respect these few things or priviliges which were given to Malays and Muslims. They both agreed. All agreed. How can you turn back 51 years from that time and tell us you dont wish to obey it? Yes some things needs to change and in todays time the definition might have gotten blurred, but it is up to us to change it, not others. Up to the malays, why>?? because we were the ones who put it on the table, so if we refuse to change it,if we say no matter how hard it is, you should accept it, why? because your grandfathers agreed to it and our grandfathers agreed to it.

If these things are not questioned then it will never be a problem. But if you question it then we will have to react.

Salah rasanya kalau aku sendiri tidak berbahasa untuk meminta orang berbudi. Kata melayu ada menyebut "jangan kau sentuh! Agama, Sultan dan keluarga Melayu..." I remind everyone of the Malayan Union, we stood up against tyrants for our Sultan, and we will stand even stronger if the matter or cause for offence is our religion. We Will REACT. Please do not make us.

p/s - I am not a racist... but then again if people who read this thinks so... i do not care. I just believe in a promise all the races made a long time ago. Remember we have never asked you to stop building your temples or churches. we have never stopped you from doing anything except that in which has been mentioned cannot be done. Do not make us react in a manner that will leave all of non-malays out of the governing body.

True or false

My girlfriend an avid reader of blogs came across this one page that i think a lot of people should check out - http://us2.malaysia-today.net/2008/content/view/10901/84/

Now the interesting thing about this is not the post in its ownself but rather the comments that came afterwards. I was always under the impression that you should never totally and perfectly believe what we read in books, magazines or even newspapers and i assumed that most of the bloggers or people that read blogs would have the same amount of cynicism that i have. Apparently i was wrong. I have always believed that what ever happens in this world it is up to the judicial system to act and if that is corrupted God would probably show the way, however i read comments and i see all these people leaving behind idiotic and irrelevant comments and i think to myself "all this because they read something online? acting like its the gospel truth..."

The fundamentals of being a good readers, analyst and even journalist and even a good human being is that you always have a skeptic side to everything. Why one earth would this article be published online clear cut with the fact to be placed on one side of the argument. I was thinking to myself that if i had the capacity, to change and influence how people think i might use it so people would agree with my ideas with how i saw things.

Sadly enough a posted pdf format letter (which by the way could have been written by anyone) is all it takes to convince people. I know not how to approach this issue of sodomy and lying and religious ideas, i do not know how. All i know is that i always remain skeptic towards everything that people give you. Even the history books in high school was always questioned. Championing one man to the extent that a simply posted document on the web could convince you of his innocence is just down right idiotic.

If someone there posted a comment as such

"I downloaded the pdf format and had one of my lawyer friends look at it and found that it was authentic because the MD's registration number bla bla bla and there fore the letter is authentic bla bla bla"

i would have thought "ok thats a relief someone actually took the time"

But all i saw was

"damn najib!"
"go to hell badawi"
"There is no need for a trial"

So.. immature.

Come on people do you really expect everyone to just read something and believe it totally? do you bloggers who once championed your ability to question everything in this world as having two sides, do you really believe reading one article online should be able to change your mind? For those who often read this blog. I wrote this blog for a group of people who are silent readers of my blog. I know they read... they've emailed me before... and i am not afraid of confrontation. read the link i posted here and think this... is a blog post really enough to convince you of something? do you believe everything you read???? :D

Unable to write

kadangkala dingin hati melihat kau pergi.
Kau seperti tidak peduli melangkah pergi,
bisu,
tuli,
buta,
bagai disumpah neraka,
bagai disimbah api dari segala petala,
bodoh aku sekejap,
pemergian kau menjadi gelap,
gelap dalam tiap segenap,

mana pergi kata-kata yang dulunya menari,
tutur yang bagai mentari,
menyinari memandikan diri ini,
hujan yang suamnya menidurkan aku,
angin yang sepoinya tidak kenal lesu.....

dulu...
aku mampu... aku mahu...
sekarang kau pergi... dan aku menyendiri..
dan aku tuli... bisu... buta...
tanpa kata-kata yang dulu membawa makna berjuta rasa dan nista....

kembali kata-kataku...
aku mahu menulis seperti dulu....
aku rindu okestra cipataan kita...
aku rindu lukisan dunia yang kita hasilkan bersama..

kembalilah kata-kataku...
mari kita siapkan cerita kita...
cerita kita yang bagai tiada sudahnya...

kata-kata, perkataan, ayat, nahu, pertuturan, semuanya pulang ada aku....
aku merayu..

Absence

i miss you like a flower misses the sun...
a flower in the depth of winter...
with only freeze and coldness to surround it....
cold in the vast emptiness that your absence has banished me to...

I miss you like the air misses the morning mist...
with only moment to have together before the sun rises and taketh it all away...
leaving me alone and cold....
cold in the vast emptiness that your absence has banished me to....

I miss you like the moon misses the blanket of stars...
the dances to keep the moon company...
but now i am cold...
cold in the vast emptiness that your absence has banished me to....

i can no longer string the wonderful words you loved me for...
i can no longer write as beautifully as i used to...
will you leave me cold????
will you leave cold in the vast emptiness your absence will banish me to???


p/s - havent been able to write... to write well one must read... havent got time to read hahhhah