Can you put away the phone, please?

Pernah tak nampak keadaan ini? “Satu family makan bersama, duduk semeja, tapi semua ahli keluarga sibuk tengok phone masing-masing”

I have seen it for many times… and it triggers me… I don’t want us my family to be like this..

So I have started my own self-challenge of putting the phone away when I am home. Baru start last week. Check on the phone only when daughter or husband is not around. Or only use the phone when I have to call people or pick up calls.

Basically the idea is to reduce the amount of time holding or gluing myself to the phone screen when I am at home or when I am around family members.

Personally, this challenge is not easy. I need to be really really emotionally strong. Especially since the last 10 years da terbiasa asyik nak check whatsapp messages, whatsapp status, check facebook timeline, check instagram, tgk youtube or bermacam short movie videos bagai. Astaghfirullah.

So these records are based on my own experience since I started this challenge…

1-  Felt sad when u already detox yourself from the smartphone but other beloved people still holds on to it. To me, the unspoken message to me is "scrolling the timeline is more important than spending quality time with you".

Remedy: Ajak ahli keluarga tersayang untuk join this challenge. If they insist to be glued to their phone, let them be until they learnt the lesson of “you don’t know what you have until it’s gone…”

I have learnt my lesson when I lose late Hanafee.. up to this day.. I still remember his words.. “Sayang, cukup-cukuplah twitter tu”. The next morning, he was gone… At that time, I did listen to him and stop twittering when he said that. I just wished he did not need to remind me at all.. I just wished that I would put the phone away when he’s around.

2- The stressfulness of having to consistently say "NO" when your daughter crying out loud begging for phone. Sampai keluar ayat “Mommy, you don’t love me…” Sampai kita terpaksa bebel walaupun kita tak nak bebel. Sampai bebelan kita termasuk orang lain.. “Handphone handphone handphone. Orang sana main phone, orang sini main phone, bla bla bla”

Remedy: Cuba lagi untuk slow-talk dengan anak and ajak dia buat aktiviti fun yang lain.

3- Some people generously utter "Tak baca whatsapp ke?", "Baik tak payah ade phone", “Anti-social”

Remedy: Tell the people about this challenge. Tell them to call if it’s really urgent. And tell them that your existence is this world bukan lah untuk check the phone every second of the day. Duh!

I hope I will stay strong and improve the quality of time with my family.

I hope people around me will support me and it would be best if they also do the same. Less time with phone around family members. 

Catatan Januari

Januari sudah semakin sampai ke penghujung, minggu depan hari Jumaat dah masuk 1 Februari.

Cepat sungguh masa berlalu.

Tadi pagi sesi hadis di office, dapat ilmu baru. Aku baru tahu rupanya tidak elok untuk kita cakap "biarlah masa yang menentukan..." . Masa itu adalah ciptaan Allah; makhluk Allah. So masa tidak boleh menentukan apa-apa, hanya Allah yang dapat menentukan segala-galanya.

Orang-orang zaman jahiliyiah pada zaman nabi-nabi terdahulu, mereka suka menisbahkan sesuatu yang tidak baik dengan masa. So bila dia salahkan masa, ibarat dia menyalahkan Allah, sedangkan Allah itu Maha Sempurna. Jadi kita tidak boleh dan ditegah sama sekali untuk ikut amalan orang jahiliyiah.

Yes, office saya bekerja ni, kami akan buat bacaan yassin setiap bulan, ini sudah lama sejak 7-8 tahun yang lalu. Start bulan 11 tahun lepas, sesi perkongsian 1hari-1hadis pula.

Bagus juga macam ini, tidaklah kita lalai dari akhirat, inshaaAllah.

Sudah banyak agaknya pahala berantai yang boss S dapat, sebab idea cetusan sesi-sesi begini datang dari beliau. MashaAllah.

Mudah sebenarnya kita nak buat ladang pahala, 'berbisness' dengan Allah. 'Perniagaan' dengan Allah tidak pernah rugi. Untung semuanya.

Anyway, apa yang dah kita capai bulan ini? Adakah lebih baik dari bulan lepas?

Bab pekerjaan. Aku rasa bulan ni Alhamdulillah kedatangan aku ke tempat kerja 'excellent', takde selepas pukul 8 pagi dah. Haha. Obviously, better than last year. Harap berterusan lah sampai akhir tahun, inshaaAllah. Alhamdulillah, inilah kebaikan Orked masuk pra-sekolah. Hantar dia pi sekolah dulu, and then terus pi kerja.

Bab rohani pulak. Aku target untuk capai mengaji at least 1 hari 1 muka dalam mana-mana waktu selepas solat. So meaning 1 hari mesti ada baca 1 muka. So far alhamdulillah berjaya, sekarang dah masuk juzuk 2. Ada juga hari yang macam tak sempat baca, entah apa yang aku sibukkan. Astaghfirullah. Perlu baiki lagi konsistensi itu. Tahun lepas dapat katam sekali ja setahun. Malu. Sibuk sangat dengan dunia. Tahun ni nak tingkatkan ke 2 kali katam setahun. Allah pasti bantu.

Bab anak pulak. Dapat siapkan bilik for Orked. Robok putih dia, baju-baju and mainan-mainan semua dah dipindahkan ke bilik dia sendiri. Kemain suka dia. Tapi Orked masih belum berani tidur sendiri lagi. Dah cuba teman dia tidur dulu, bukak pintu semua, tapi nanti pukul 1-2 pagi, dia datang semula masuk bilik kami. Haha. Korang ade tips tak macam mana nak beranikan anak untuk tidur sendiri?

Bab ibu bapa. Aku target untuk setiap hari Jumaat transfer online banking ke tabung haji mak abah. So far ade satu hari Jumaat terlupa. Astaghfirullah. Lepas ni nak try set buat 'recurring'. Semoga kami dapat pergi umrah bersama-sama. Haji mak abah dah pergi dah. Tapi sebab aku belum pernah pergi, so aku niat nak pergi umrah sama-sama dengan mak abah and suami and kalau ada rezeki lebih dengan Orked sekali. Ish, termenangis pulak semasa tulis ni. Allah pasti bantu. Allah sebaik-baik pemberi rezeki.

Bab suami. Err... Sambung post akan datang lah ya. Hahaha.

Oklah. Korang semua macam mana? Semoga kita semua berlumba-lumba ke arah jalan-jalan yang diredhai Allah. Amin!

The Books

Since 2014, I kept on receiving books, one after another. It was given without i even asked for it. I knew who the Sender is. I received them with an open heart full of curiosity. The Sender did not leave any messages to me. It was sort of like an unwritten message... like "I am giving you this, learn, and use it wisely".

So I am free to just let it be unread. And if i read them books, i am free to decide whether to read halfway or entirely until the end. If i have finished it, i am free to keep or return it. 

Usually right after I decided to close a book and return it, a next new book would be delivered to my doorstep. The Sender knows everything! He never failed to send me a book to brighten up my days. There are quite a number of reasons why i decided to close a book. It could be because the books are boring, too predictable or just not up to what i imagined it to be. And the Sender was never mad when i closed any book. He knew my reasons and He is okay. 

The earlier books that I received; Civil (2014/2015), Bicycle I (2015) and Coffee (2015/2016), I did not bother to scribble in them. I thought it's not nice to scribble in a book which i knew i would return it later. But after the 4^th book onward; Gas (2016), Cloud (2017), and Bicycle II (2017), I started to scribble, jot some notes or doodled in them. I don’t know why I did it. I wish I could turned back the time and refrained from dirtying the books. Well, it's not literally dirty, hey i use colorful pencils and i am pretty much damn sure my doodles looks beautiful and i think if the books can speak, they would be honored that i doodled in them. Haha. Anyway all the six books are now closed and safely returned. Alhamdulillah. I learnt a lot. *smiles*

For now, I'd like to keep just the 7th book, Paradise (2018). To me the 7th book is so wonderfully charming, it’s a mix of everything that I like from book 1 to book 6. I am so grateful and happy to have found "Paradise" that makes me feel at peace. 

I used to keep this one book for 9 years, my Poetry book (2003) that I loved so much.. i bring him anywhere i go. However it was taken away from me in 2012... In the blink of an eye it was gone... But I believe in whatever that is taken away from us, will be replaced with something better... we don't know but Allah knows. 

I wish to keep Paradise for as long as i could, just like how i did with Poetry... and when the time comes, i wish the Book-Giver would take me first instead of my book cause i am not sure whether i could bear another loss. 

So, with that, I end my story-telling. *smiles* Thank You. 

Recap 2017

Dah bulan Oct 2018 dah. Baru nak buat recap 2017. Hahaha.

Apa²lah. Janji bila da tua datang sini balik, boleh baca and gelak sendiri. 

Ok a quick one with key words only.

Jan 2017. McSurfy; McJungle. Short hair-cut.
Feb 2017. Double outing with sis amy, ferdy and their friend.

Mar 2017. MaryJane; cloud. USS with kak tini's families and Hanee.
Apr 2017. Workshops and warehouse explorations. Site material management.
May 2017. Whole Brain Extraordinary Parenting with Prof Muhaya at USIM. The Diamond Circle photoshoot. Marina Bay exhibition trip to Singapore.
June 2017. OnCloud shoes. Hari Raya in Segamat.
July 2017. Yoga bites. Stay at office at wee hours. 

Aug 2017. Beli pokok² for the house. Outstation training in KL. McCursy; Bicycle. Afiqah Amani and Imah UIA yoga. Ejud, Mitsui Outlet.
Sep 2017. O'neill skins McSurfy. MISC away day at PD. Went to Safety's wedding. New spec LeeCooper. ICT away day, carpool with bro Hafidz, Ghazi and daughter Hanee. Neighborhood paparazzi; spies bawang.

Oct 2017. Zoo Johor trip with Hanee. New niece was born, AuniZea. Hanee's kindy's SK anniversary celebration and fun day at Kompleks Sukan Nusajaya. Another exhibition trip to Singapore. Digitalization discussion @ UTM.
Nov 2017. Cassandra beauty dust. Hanee and superman costume. Aveva event with Syamilah at KL.
Dec 2017. Cik ina's daughter engagement. Drone exploration. With mak, visiting Nya Mayda and their daughters in Puchong. Swimming. Went for maksuwi's bbq. Bring Hanee to meet the uncles and cousins Daddy's side, but she's asleep due to tiredness. And mak was unwell, dizziness.

That's it. Based on photos memories. 

2018!

Assalamualaikum.

2018 dah wei.. sepatutnya dah tulis dah summary 2017.. tangguh² so bila nak tulis ni? Hahaha.

Well.. okay.. let me basuh baju dulu... Then ambil Hanee from school... Then pi dobi keringkan baju... Cuaca sejuk weiii... hujan tak henti² ni. 

No am not whining or complaining. I am just voicing out. Hehe. Alhamdulillah. 

Ok. Nanti sambung semula. Bye! 

Tips menyimpan duit hijau dan oren

In harmony, the green and orange notes. 😊

This is an encouragement post for us to develop a saving habit. Bismillah. 

Cantik kan orange and green? So harmony. My eyes would sparkle everytime i see green or orange notes! Coz i've trained the brain to hide them instead of spending them. I learnt this saving tips from the internet. Tak ingat blog financial mana yg ajar. Semoga Allah melipat gandakan pahala di atas ilmu yg penulis itu sampaikan.

The green one dah lama start so since the amount is small, tak rasa sgt when it disappear from purse. However, the orange one tu baru start few months back. Mmg perit bila da start kumpul yg orange ni. Purse akan rasa cepat kering.

We need to stay strong. If purse da kering pun... jangan sesekali korek simpanan green and orange ini. Semoga Tuhan membantu kita.

Tak takut hilang? If banjir terbakar mcm mana? Yes, it is good to evaluate the risks and all but I'd prefer to put aside all those negative thoughts and banyakkan berdoa dan sangka baik pd Allah.

Jika niat baik, Tuhan akan bantu dan menggerakkan makhluk²nya yg lain utk bantu kita juga. I believe in that.

So tanamkan dalam hati kenapa kita menyimpan in the first place. Utk mencari redha Allah dan menggunakan simpanan ke arah sesuatu yg bermanfaat utk anak, keluarga dan agama.

I have a wish to go umrah/haji dan settlekan hutang² sebanyak dan sesegera yg mungkin sebelum pejam mata selamanya.

Mohon doakan yg terbaik utk Sab and Hanee ok? 😘 What to do with all these paper notes? Being me, i would use to buy dinar 😍.

As for you, maybe it would turn to something else, it's your choice, your call.

Till then, selamat menyimpan dan semoga Allah memelihara dan melipatgandakan simpanan kamu! Amin. 😄

Deactivate Facebook?

I no longer have a facebook account. Few weeks ago, I deactivated it. Not sure whether can delete it entirely, but nevermind, will figure it out later.

I have no facebook. And i am not ashamed to admit it. Yay! Goodbye my 9 year old FB. Hihi

Dapat soalan² dan statement² yg hampir sama aja dari rakan² dan teman²... maka, bawah ni jawapan² bagi merungkaikan semuanya.  

Kenapa deactivate FB? Apa sebab?

I am just not interested to be on Facebook anymore. I wasn't that active in FB anyway. So... ah, baik tak payah ade FB kan? 

Nak lari dari siapa?

Tak lari dari siapa². I just wanna stay... low? 

Siapa suruh delete? Ha...gaduh dgn pakwe ler tu.

Tiada siapa² suruh delete. Tiada siapa² yg mempengaruhi utk deactivate FB. Tiada pakwe, maka tiada pergaduhan. Chill. 

Ish, kan sekarang banyak info dalam FB. 

Yes, betul. But info yg sama pun boleh dapat dari sumber² lain juga anyway. 

Tiada FB... business marketing macam mana?

Business marketing masih boleh diteruskan guna cara lain. Yakin Allah bagi rezeki.  

Tidak rasa rugi ke bila takde FB?

Tidak. Rasa untung; save money dari shopping di FB?  Hihi. 

Apahal nak anti-social pulak?

Bukan anti-social. I do not depend on FB to be social. 

Macam mana nak keep in touch nanti?

I am still reachable via phone call, email, whatsapp. And jumpa depan² kan boleh? =)

Apakah perasaan selepas tiada FB?

Calm. Bebas! Alhamdulillah!

Akan activate semula tak?

Tidak pasti. Mungkin tidak. i hope i'd stay deactivated for good. 

Storyteller

I once knew a storyteller, who told stories to the people around him. Because he believed that reality can sometimes be cruel, so he wrote in verses and hymns. He spoke of beauty and of heart, he spoke of courage and of honor and of art. He steadily as the sun shone and as honestly as the rain falls, straight down bothered only by the wind that blows. Even then, with the wind, the rain was not hindered but rather danced with the wind.

I once knew a storyteller who made people laugh. People smile, tilt their head to the side and awed at his ability to tell a story with candor and finesse.

Then something happened to the very same storyteller. After some time he grew dark and he grew dim. And slowly his stories faded. And replaced by reality. When people asked what happened, he said "the world needs the truth, if we shield our children with fairy-tales and stories, they will never grow knowing what the world is actually like."

So he stopped telling stories, and talked about the worst things in life, the hands that were stained with blood in the name of God, the definition of friendship as seen by the devil, a vessel fit for two in happy times and only fitting for one in turbulent times.

So one day as the storyteller sat across a table with drink in hand in front of me, I was overwhelmed by the need and curiosity to ask him:- "What happened?"

and he said....

"I grew up..."

The storyteller was now a man.

And when he was little, he spoke of many things, true and untrue, but mostly of beauty and heart, of courage, of honor and of art. As he grew the world robbed him of his imagination. And now he has stopped telling the stories. Now he tells people what he believes to be necessary. He doesn't tell stories anymore. And do you know what you call a storyteller who doesn't tell stories?

A person who whines.

'Posted by' jadi tak betul sudahhh

Aiseyy... I was trying to update the labels for Hanafee's old posts and when i changed the labels suddenly all the posts with his signatures became my signature!

It should be "Posted by Hanafee"... now dah jadi "Posted by Sabrina" pulakkk. Apa ni blogspot?! What have you done? Kan dah tak betulll.... padahal bukan sab yg tulis pun... ish, tak suka lah bila info jadi tidak tepat ni. Boleh mengelirukan orang tau. 

Hahaha. Little things like this pun nak emo. Kikikiki. 

Takdelah.. emo few secs je, bukan emo 24hours... LOL. 

Anyway, for old posts, trust the label ok - if it says Hanafee's writings, then it is. Just ignore 'Posted By Sabrina' tu. Grrr, 

Hmm... or maybe i will just hide the "Posted by" 

Settle. Hihi

Ok da~ 

Syawal 1438H

Assalamualaikum.

It's already the 5th day of Eid Al-Fitr. 

Hope it's still not too late to wish you Selamat Hari Raya!!

How's your raya? Seronok? Bosan? Biasa je?

Tahun ni, tahun ke-5 Sab and Hanee sambut raya without Daddy. But it's okayyy. We still have Atoks, Uncles and Brothers around~ =) 

Raya di Johor aja kita. Bila ntah dapat raya jauh. Adakah rezeki? Hanya Allah yg Maha Tahu. 

Dulu berangan nak raya Kedah.. berangan nak raya Sabah... coz of late husband's parents asalnya dari Kedah and Sabah. Tapi tinggal angan-angan aja lah. Huhu. 

It's okay, kalau Sab panjang umur, memang Sab akan bawak Hanee pergi Sabah sana. Amin! But one of late husband's uncle that's in my list to meet sudah passed away last week.. I remember him cause dia datang dari jauh to our wedding in 2011. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiuunn. =(

This year i did not buy any baju raya for myself. Kasut raya pun tiada. Bukan sebab dah beli awal atau apa. Memang tak beli pun. This year, i pakai apa yang ada and i felt happy and bersyukur. =)

However i did buy baju raya for Hanee. kat Tesco. Hahaha, kelakar rasanya. Tiada apa yang nak dimalukan anyway, still cute and cantik-cantik apa. Murah lagi. Adalah 2 pasang baju kurung cotton bunga-bunga and beberapa baju jalan.

And rupa-rupanya, itulah perasaannya... apabila emak abah tidak kisah mereka tiada baju baru, asalkan anak dapat baju baru..kasut raya baru.. =)

Hmm, teringat dulu kecik-kecik, emak abah selalu macam dapat bagi apa yang sab nak... padahal entah-entah mak abah susah payah cari duit supaya sab and adik beradik dapat apa yang kami nak.. =(

Anyway, am still not sure whether this year nak buat open house or not. We'll see lah whether got budget terlebih. Not wajib pun kan? =P . Plus, my house is always open for kawan-kawan to come visit and lepak apa... tak perlu tunggu raya to open the house. Hihi. 

Before i end this post, jomlah kita kumpul duit for ibadah Korban pula ok? Tak dapat seekor, sebahagian pun tidak apa.

Okies bai~ 

Hanee turns Four!

Assalamualaikum!

11th April, Daddy's Orked; Hanee Hanafee turns Four!

I take a day off from work to spend time with my daughter. This year, mommy tak order cake pun. Because... Why birthday mesti ada cake? Why? Why? So no cake this year, for a change. Hahaha. Teruk punya mommy. Kiki. 

Usually for the last three years, i would order birthday cakes from aunty Shaleen. Loyal customer tau. Hihi.

Yesterday, aunty Jane bagi Hanee hadiah toys doctor². She cried coz she was expecting toys princess². Adei... Suruh cakap thank you kat aunty Jane pun dia tak nak. Bertuah punya anak. And then after hantar aunty Jane balik, we hunted for toys princess², tetiba dia nampak toys pizza², as always, dia nak beli dua²! Being a mother, of course i said no, choose one only, and we ended up buying the pizza toys.

And then bila da dlm kereta, dia siap bilang... "Doctor ada, pizza ada, princess belum". Facepalm mommy okay. "u already have princess toys last year. But u didnt play it that much. Mintak toys yg awk nak main sahaja okay" "okay...i am sorry mommy" 

Sometimes i wonder whether i pamper her? But i have tried my very best to be the best version of cool mother any kid would love to have. Hahaha. Ok gebang je lebih. 

In reality, i am garang nak mampos. Kasar tak ingat dunia. To her. And any family members wouldn't deny it. They have witnessed it, the monster-mother side of me. And i am not proud of that, i tell u. I am not. 

I feel bad. I feel like everyday i am sinning... coz of the way i treat and jaga her. With her status as anak yatim. Sudahlah memang diri byk dosa² lain.. I dont know.. i can do better. I am better than this. But the fact that Allah chose me as her mother... And she as my daughter... That means something.. something i should be thankful for. We are best for each other. I didnt pick her. She didnt pick me. We are destined for each other. AllahuAkbar. 

So on this beautiful day, this is my wish, hope n prayer for u Hanee: 

I pray u to grow up dgn sihat sempurna tubuh badan, akal fikiran. 

I pray u to be wiser and matured and independent beyond your age, coz i dont know how long am gonna be around..

I pray u to always remember Allah, ok right now maybe u dont know what Allah Tuhan God is, but sooner or later u will know. And when the time comes.. i want u to learn about Islam by heart. Be solehah by heart. 

I pray u to always be protected by Allah, guided by Allah. 

I pray u to have a big heart and forgive mommy and daddy, maktok, tok abah, uncles, aunties, everyone that have hurt u intentionally or unintentionally. Pls forgive us, sayang. 

And i want u to know that i am sorry for everything and i love u with all my heart. I hurt u, i am mad at u, all that because i dont want u to be like me. I want u to be better than me. 

Happy 4th Birthday Hanee sayang. 

4 years and counting.

We have gone this far and we are gonna keep on dancing and rocking, dear!

I love u Hanee, my baby superhero. I do. 

Hugs and kisses,

Your Mommy Wonderwoman

Recap 2016

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum~ *smiles*

Rinduuunyaaaa kat blog ni. Kalau blog ni manusia, dah peluk peluk dah. hahaha.

Wow. We are in 2017 already. I started blogging in 2006/2007 if am not mistaken.... so pejam celik pejam celik lebih kurang 10 tahun! Dari zaman single belum kawin, sampailah ke zaman single semulaaa.... hihihi.

Anyway, biasalah kan... bila dah beralih tahun, mulalah ada azam nak update blog yg dah berhabuk ni... nak buat itulah...nak buat ini lah.. but istiqomahnya ke lautt.... hihihi. Marilah doakan ia tak ke laut this time okeh.

How was your new year, my dear readers? Hopefully, everything went well for you. Kalaupun ada yang tak best berlaku for the past few days of this 2017, remember that what Allah SWT has written for us, is always the best one. =)

Since i dont write that much in 2016, i'd like to recap everything that had happened in 2016 in this post. So that over the years nanti, i believe, when i read back, it will make me smiles. Kan? Kan? Tadi, sebelum tulis post ni pun, saje baca dulu posts yg lepas lepas, tahun tahun sudah, saje jalan jalan kat memori yg dulu. bukan nak sedih atau apa, kadang-kadang pengalaman dan kejadian yg lepas-lepas tu la yg menjadikan kita lebih dewasa matang macam sekarang ni. Eh betul ke dah matang ni? *tgn kat mulut*. Anggap jelah sudahhhh.. Hahahhaa.

So here's my 2016 recap.

Jan 2016 - My younger sister, Syahirah, got married to her husband Taufik. They met in Birmingham, UK. Padahal sebenarnya diorang satu sekolah rendah masa kecik. Tapi masa kecik2 diorang tak kenal each other pun. I am so bersyukur my younger sister dapat orang yg beriman, baik, bertanggungjawab,boleh diharapkan dan dipercayai. Eh, puji lebih2 pulak adik ipor. Hahahah. Betullah. Alhamdulillah. I am happy so happy for her. She is indeed seorang anak perempuan yg baik, so she deserves lelaki yang baik juga. Semoga kekal bahagia sampai bila-bila. Aamiin. =)

Feb 2016 -  Start cuci rumah baru and check rumah. Installed kitchen rumah baru. My high school friend from Samura came visit. I tried pajak emas for the first time. Bought my first orange Prada.

Mar 2016 -  Started jual Dexandra Perfumes. Mak Suwi (Hanafee's aunt) and her family came visit Hanee. My birthday month~ Legoland Drypark Waterpark with Hanee. Free tickets from boss En Rahim.

Apr 2016 - Hanee's birth month! She turned 3 years old. Small celebration at parents' home. Joined SHOM and became a part of The Diamond Circle team (TDC).

May 2016 - Hanee dapat cousin boy, Adi! My younger brother became a father. I became Sales Manager in SHOM for achieving 20k sales. Start extend dapur utk rumah baru. Start cat dalam rumah, abah yang cat with uncle Dino. Start busy with TDC classes. Start being a Premium Beautiful Expert and user. =)

June 2016 - Ramadhan month. Hello Kitty and Thomas Park with the kids; Hanee, Danial, Wafiy and Intan before Ramadhan. Langsir utk rumah baru semua bilik semua ruang siap dipasang. Bought my first black Marc Jacobs. Mr. Safety muncul. Was admitted and hospitalized in KPJ Pasir Gudang. First minor operation at neck. Alhamdulillah. Tidak ada apa-apa, cuma reactive lymph node sahaja.

July 2016 - Syawal month. Hari Raya first in Segamat. Wooden floor at parents house rosak due to paip pecah masa raya. So 2nd daya hari raya, we moved into my new house. Tak plan nak masuk rumah baru pun sebenarnya. But things happened and bermulalah tidur di rumah baru.... nasib baik rumah dah dicuci, langsir dah dipasang and dapur dah siap. Syukur Alhamdulillah. First hari raya at new home with family belah Mak. Organized open house kat rumah baru for family and friends.

Aug 2016 - Hanee's first month in day care! Sri Kamariah's at Taman Bukit Dahlia. Alhamdulillah she's ok. This is also the month that i started to live alone, just Hanee and Mommy. My girlfriend's wedding, Mashe. Received award from SHOM for Sales Manager. Get together with Daddy's family; late husband's brothers. Short visits jumpa Emi and Nana best roomies. Tried contact lenses for the first time and loving it! Cut my hair, looks cuter and younger. haha.

Sep 2016 - Korban month. Alhamdulillah dapat buat korban. My uncle's wedding in Kelantan, Pak Ude's new wife is just 3 years older than me! Hehehe. We went to his wedding by train. And taubat tak nak pergi Kelantan naik train dah. Crossed path with high school's ex in instagram. Haha.

Oct 2016 - Cut Hanee's hair short like a boy. Syirah's balik from labuan, utk bersalin di Johor. Family vacation in Hibiscus Lexis, PD. Best best, rumah atas air. Swimming pool atas laut. Gold biz meet up with primary school friend Usop. Tried make-up plus app for the first time. Jakun. Org lain dah lama guna, kita baru nak try. Haha. Si puteh gave birth to Leopard and Grey on 1st Muharram 1438, kat bilik bawah at my home, after mak solat zohor. =)

Nov 2016 - Hanee dapat cousin boy, Fateh! My younger sister became a mother. Had facial treatment with high school's friend Pika Amani. Went to Hanee's shrek-tacular party organized by her kindy at Thistle Hotel, JB. Had bekam darah for the first also. Went to Ebit Lew's talk in MMHE.

Dec 2016 - Hanee tak pergi day care sebulan this month. Coz maktok, atok abah, danial, syirah and fateh stays in Kiara with us. Was referred to KPJ Pasir Gudang again. But Alhamdulillah, tests results was ok. Tidak ada apa-apa yg perlu dirisaukan. Mr. Safety hilang. Went to TDC Power Training part 2 in Klang. Attending beYOUtiful night with girlfriend Mashe. Ditched ticket flights and took a car journey with good friend D. Closing the year with Jom Usrah Class.  

Fuh, that's it. A recap of 2016. How did i remember all these events? Thanks to photo albums and chat histories. Sebenarnya tahun 2016 tak ended dgn begitu cantik pun sbb ade kejadian kehilangan di situ. But i dont wanna focus on that. I just want to bersyukur for everything that had happened, good and bad, happy and sad. I believe semua ada hikmah. Kita fikir baik, kita sangka baik ok?

So, oklah. Ini lah post pertama utk tahun baru 2017. Selamat Tahun 2017 to you!
Stay in love with whatever and whoever that you love this year! *winks*
Daaa~



xoxo,
Sabrina

Hello 2016

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

Selamat Tahun 2016!

How was your last five days of new year? Semoga semua selamat dan dipermudahkan dan dalam rahmat kasih sayang Allah. =)

Sab nak inform ni.. that on 17th January... i am going to change this blog name to BubblySabrina. So the new URL will be bubblysabrina.blogspot.com

This is an early notice so you could do the needful like updating my blog URL in your bloglist perhaps? Hihi. Itupun kalau anda masih ingin follow blog hamba yg tak seberapa ni..huhu.

17th January adalah sempena hari kelahiran Arwah Hanafee. 31 tahun. Ya Allah rahmatilah rohnya Hanafee Abdul Rahman. Amiin.

Anyway... my 2015 was full of ups downs.. which is normal and semua org pun begitu. Being me.. i always wanna focus and remember beautiful things. Negative thoughts are there, lumrah manusia, don't we all have it? Nevertheless.. I force myself to find and see the good side of everything. No matter how sad or shameful some situations were.. i view it as lessons from Allah. And so Alhamdulillah. *smiles*

So apa yg beautiful things nye dalam tahun 2015 tu?
Ini diaaaa:

1. Jan 2015. Started to pay for new house. Cari pasal tambah hutang besar elok elok hutang sikit je. Haha. Takpelah. This is a good debt kan? Hihi. In sha Allah by end Q1 2016 akan dapat kunci.
2. March 2015. Registered as UEG Network Dealer. Dapat upah 10 dirham buat ebook UEG.
3. Mar 2015. Anniversary of me being a stokist susu kambing of Mummylicious. Still able to jual walaupun jarang promote online. Huhu
4. April 2015. Hanee turns two! Small family celebration kat rumah. And funny thing was rupanya design kek yg dipilih sama dgn yg masa umur 1 tahun! Hahaha. Apelah mommy ni!
5. April 2015. Arrival of "The Ha? Pilot." Hihi.
6. May 2015. Created a Witty Bubbly Nerdy facebook page. Kononnya nak promote emas, susu and preloved items di situ. 
7. May 2015. My younger brother's convocation in Melaka. We stayed in Melaka. Hotel ape ntah lupa namanya. Hanee seronok mandi swimming pool. 
8. June 2015. Err.. i forgot what happened. Haha. Owh. It's Ramadhan. 
9. July 2015. Raya in Paklong's. Subang Galaxy. 
10. Aug 2015. Departure of "The Ha? Pilot." Safe journey you! *winks*
11. Aug 2015. My younger brother got married to his wife; Yati. And rupanya Yati's sister was my senior in high school SSI. Haha. What a small world!
12. Aug 2015. Mother-Daughter Love-Hate relationship; heartbreaking dispute.
13. Sep 2015. Went to ESQ165. Boss UEG sponsor. Emotional Spiritual. Mendidik Allah Iman Islam dalam hati. 
14. Sep 2015. My parents went for Hajj.
15. Sep 2015. A rainbow knocks on my door. Hihi. 
16. Sep 2015. Angry bird park! Hanee and w.i.w.
17. Oct 2015. Went to high school SSI just to visit my favorite teachers; Cikgu Shakir and Pn. Kalthom. Cikgu cikgu lain ramai dah pindahh.. =( I miss cikgu ujang.. cikgu wan and cikgu Naimas.. 
18. Oct 2015. Parents back from Hajj safely despite many sad news. Alhamdulillah
19. Nov 2015. First time keluarkan zakat emas. Alhamdulillah. 
20. Nov 2015. Cari pokok, fish feeding and bubbles! Hanee and w.i.w.
21. Dec 2015. My younger sister pulak got married. I now have BIL and SIL. Welcome to our funny crazy family, Yati and Taufik. =) 

Whooaa. Panjang list. I am sure there are many more cuma tak ter-retrieve at this moment. Hihi. 

I suggest you list them down too so we can be grateful for everything. Bersyukur masih diberi nyawa..nikmat tidak terhingga.. Alhamdulillah.. moga kita menjadi lebih baik tahun 2016 ini.

Walau apa pun yang terjadi.. baik atau buruk.. percayalah semua itu tidak sia-sia dan ada hikmahnya. =)

Love,

Sabrina. 

Muharam 1437

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

Hellew! How are u? Yes you, who read this. *winks* Hopefully you are in pink of health.

Hanee and I are doing good. Alhamdulillah.
My baby girl is 2 years 6 months now.. sudah pandai memberi arahan kepada mak nya. "Mommy, buat susu hanee." Amboiiiii. Bossy little daughter! Hahaha. And so far... masih belum bertanya tentang Daddy nya. Fuh. I haven't prepared the answers mannn... haha. 

Last few days... i commented on a friend's instagram.. and she said she kept on re reading this blog.. as she misses it. *terharu*

I miss this blog and writing too, z. I do... your response in that IG became a pushing factor... and so here i am...writing this. Thank you for not giving up on us. *smiles*

I miss all of you.. Alhamdulillah some of you readers  i still keep in touch with... either loudly or silently.. by scrolling down your instagram's pictures or reading your tweets. Haha. Gotcha!

Anyway...i would like to take this opportunity to say.. Selamat Tahun Hijriah 1437... today is 2nd Muharam. Semoga kita semua diberi kekuatan utk melakukan penghijrahan ke arah lebih baik. Semoga Allah tutup jaga keaiban kita...dan semoga dihapuskan dosa dosa kita yg lalu. Aminn.

4th Muharam 1437.. marks 3rd year Arwah being there. Mohon didoakan dihadiahkan Al Fatihah utk rohnya.. semoga tenang dan sejahtera di sana.

Pejam celik pejam celik dah 3 tahun rupanya i've been a single mother. And korang readers pun dah kahwin bagai and beranak pinak.. haha.

Wow. 3 years. I don't even know how do i manage it..huhu. I thank Allah. Alhamdulillah. And my families and friends.... yg byk bagi support. Not an easy path i tell you..despite all those supports... sometimes i still face hari hari yg mendung jatuh down giler tak tau nak cakap kat siapa... but Alhamdulillah.. all of these are what makes me who i am today. =)

So...cheers to the 1437! 

Let's move forward and make happy memories with loved ones!

For those who are still single.. make a goal to get a spouse darlings! It's awesome. Haha

For those who have husband/wife... appreciate them...be romantic..be wild.. be crazy.. and dont forget to say u love each other everyday.

And pls pray for me too. I am single. Hahahaha. 

*winks*

Love,
Sabrina

sabrinaanwar.blogspot.my

Assalamualaikum!

Cuba tengok title? Jeng jeng jeng.....
That's my new baby.
It would be a miracle if I am pregnant right now. Haha.
So yeah, it's not a human baby or baby darling lovey dovey. No no no no.
It is my new blog that I told you about in previous post.

Introducing to you people gerek-emas.blogspot.com !
*updates: I've changed the URL to sabrinaanwar.blogspot.my.

*smiles*

Since I just ventured into gold saving, soon trading and networking. InsyaAllah. So, the blog is about Gold (for now) where I share my experience, knowledge, opinions and information. Everything that is Gold related.

So, if you are into Gold or wanting to learn about that valuable creation of God, I would like to take this opportunity to invite you to visit the blog and read. Oh, and it is in Bahasa. =)

I appreciate your support!

So what about this blog? I will still update it. Don't worry darlings.... =) This is where I pour my heart out. Eceh eceh. I don't pour all, anyway. Hehe.



See ya in next update!


Love,
Sabrina

2015

Assalamualaikum.

How is your 2015 so far? Hope it is still not too late for me to say Happy New Year!
While you are still in first month of Quarter 1, i am already in the third month. My new year started in Muharram and now it's already Rabi'ul Awal. Hihi.

Am planning to open a new blog. It's gonna be about these two categories: Gold and Goat! hahaha. No am not kidding, i am serious. Then am gonna expand to other categories.
The blog will be in Bahasa with Knowledge theme. I need to open it soon as Time is Money Gold. *winks*

So with this news...can you guess what is my new year resolutions?

Stay tuned for my new baby blog!

p/s: I will still be maintaining this Hanafee Sabrina, though. =)


Love,
S

Sharing is Therapy - Part 3

Hmm...berapa banyak part laa... haha. Sab pun tak sure berapa banyak part lagi nak publish. Hihi. Ok mari sambung sementara ingatan masih ada.

Topik: Apakah yang perlu dilakukan sebelum pengebumian?

1. Request Permit Kubur
This one I did while at the hospital. Ada kaunter polis berhampiran emergency area kat HSI tu. Alhamdulillah the officer was very helpful and give clear directions. I told him kat mana nak kebumi and if tak silap the officer tu jugak yang liaise kan dengan pihak perkuburan. He adviced me to make a police report and try get approval from authority if betul2 tak nak dibedah. But he couldn’t issue the police report though. Sab pun dah lupa kenapa dia tak boleh issue. So I had to go to the Masai police station to get the report.

2. Book van untuk bawa jenazah pergi masjid and then kubur.  
This one also I did at the hospital. Kena ambil nombor and ada borang kena isi and ade kena bayar. Alhamdulillah, semua cepat tak tunggu lama. Sebab waktu awal pagi kot. Bayaran van bergantung kepada jarak dari hospital ke tempat perkuburan tu. Sab tak ingat sab bayar berapa but less than RM20 kot. And kalau nak bawak ke tempat lain contoh masjid, perlu kow tim dengan pemandu van. Alhamdulillah, dapat pemandu Islam yang memahami dan dia  tak kesah kita minta dia singgah di masjid. Plus, the van was new and in good condition.

3. Buat police report.
Yang ini Abah sab drive and bawak sab pergi buat police report. And at the same time cuba dapatkan kebenaran tak nak dibedah. But then since it’s Sunday, approval authority was not around. Huhu  I just made a police report then. Punyalah lambat pegawai polis  tu taip. Rasa macam nak taipkan aje report tu. Asyik buat kesilapan and padam. Mungkin dia  tidak mahir computer. Dia  tidak lah tua pun. Kalau tua boleh faham lagi. Huhu.
 
4. Say yes to post mortem
I received a call from my other boss advising me to proceed with the post mortem. He pretty much convinced me to say yes. And so with a heavy heart… i said yes and gave a green light to pihak hospital to proceed with post mortem. It was Sunday kan? I thought it couldn’t be executed that day sebab memula kata takde pegawai. But Alhamdulillah, tetiba ada pegawai and the post mortem can be performed on that day jugak. Post mortem ni ada kena bayar ke tak ek? Sab rasa macam ada. But sab tak sure berapa. Sab dah tak ingat.
 
5. Bacaan Yasin
The family members dan kenalan yang ada di jabatan forensik membaca yasin utk suami..hadiahkan pada suami..semoga semua urusan dipermudahkan. Ade kawasan di luar bilik mayat utk duduk bersila dan baca Yasin. Pegawai benarkan.

6. Hubungi pihak utk memandikan jenazah
Sab tak sure siapa uruskan yg ini. Maybe parents. Kat bahagian forensik itu ada tampal senarai pihak untuk dihubungi. So kita boleh contact and aturkan. We decided mandi jenazah di hospital. Nak bawak balik rumah pun boleh actually. Dah alang-alang semua urusan boleh di hospital, maka lagi cepat if di hospital semua. Mandikan jenazah ni ada kena bayar. Sab rasa dalam RM300 to RM400. Dah tak ingat whether the cost tu termasuk post mortem or not.
 

7. Siapkan diri sendiri

Pada hari kejadian, sab tak sempat nak mandi pagi pun sebab it all happened too fast. I remembered my goodfriend Shaleen and her mom drove me home utk siapkan diri. So sementara husband di bahagain forensik, sab balik rumah untuk mandi and siap siap pakai persalinan putih. Adalah baik untuk kita sentiasa bersedia dengan persalinan putih atau hitam di rumah.

8. Memandikan jenazah
Kawan-kawan baik suami...adik lelaki Sab...and uncle ikut sama memandikan jenazah husband. Sab tak mandikan...sab tak cukup kuat mentally and emotionally... plus Sab pikir..dah agak ramai orang lelaki ikut mandikan..so Sab pun tak mandikan. =(

9. Mengkafankan jenazah
Yang ini bila dah nak habis proses mengkafan baru sab masuk tengok. Diyana teman. Sab tak boleh nak tengok sebenarnya. Macam macam perasaan ada. Lemah sedih takut semua ada..Tapi sab tengok jugak... Mulut sab tak henti henti baca doa Allahummaghfirlahum warhamhum wa'afihii wa'fua'nhum. Sebelum proses kafan habis...Sab kiss husband's forehead for the last time. Last. Lepas tu tak dapat tengok dah. =(

10. Sembahyangkan jenazah
Suami di bawa ke masjid taman rinting untuk disembahyangkan. Alhamdulillah keluarga, jiran-jiran, kawan-kawan kami, students suami juga...turut sama sembahyangkan.

11. Kebumi jenazah
Selesai sembahyan di masjid, terus bergerak ke kubur. Sab ikut pergi sama. Patutnya perempuan tidak digalakkan pergi...but Sab nak pergi jugak.Sab, mak and adik lelaki ikut sama naik van jenazah.. Dalam tu tak tau lah nak cakap apa... Tak terkata... Pandang husband yg dah berbalut putih...speechless..cuba bayangkan. Syukur sangat sangat the traffic was smooth. Sepanjang proses pengkebumian Sab still tak putus putus baca Allahummaghfirlahum warhamhum wa'afihii wa'fua'nhum. Berdoa agar semua lancar dan baik baik. Masa curahkan air ke atas kubur...nak berderai air mata...I remembered my younger brother in law said "Kak Sab..jangan nangis pls". So, sab tahan air mata... Alhamdulillah semuanya berakhir sebelum maghrib...hari yang sama. and sab nampak adik ipar org terakhir di samping kubur abangnya... he drove all the way from Perak with his wife and parents in law..
 
Maka...points before pengebumian is:

1. Permit kubur
2. Police report (if necessary, depends on case)
3. Van
4. Post mortem (if necessary, depends on case)
5. Siapkan diri
6. Bacaan Yasin
7. Mandi > Kafan > Sembahyang > Kebumi

Dengan itu...Tamatlah part 1, 2, 3 ini.... lepas ni tajuk lain pulak, but still in same category which is Therapy...

Ucapan terima kasih ingin dirakamkan sekali lagi walaupun dah 2 tahun lepas.. tak pedulik..nak tulis jugak. Terima kasih untuk semua yang ada disamping Sab pada hari kejadian...ramai.. tak tertulis kat sini. Bantuan keluarga...jiran jiran...kawan kawan sab...kawan kawan suami...sangat sangat dikenang diingat..Hanya Allah yang dapat membalas dan merahmati semua jasa kamu semua.

Terima kasih. Jazakallahu khairan.


Love,
S

Sharing is Therapy - Part 2

Sifat yang perlu ada semasa di hospital.

Tenang

Sab masih lagi perlu bertenang. Tak menangis. Tak sempat nak menangis pun sebenarnya. Sab rasa kalau korang menangis pun, sila jangan bising sebab kita sekarang berada di hospital iaitu zon orang sedang serabut dan tiada siapa heran dengan tangisan kita. Huhu. Maka, yang sab lakukan adalah menunggu dengan tenang.

Jujur.

Doctor akan tanya banyak soalan. Serious banyak soalan. Cth…awak siapa? semalam buat apa? Semalam makan apa? Pergi mana? Suami tinggal di mana? Suami sakit apa? Siapa doctor yang selalu rawat suami? Ada demam or sakit apa apa before this? Suami selalu makan ubat apa? Macam mana boleh jatuh? Jatuh dari mana? Sebelum jatuh tengah buat apa? Banyak giler soalan… Lebih dari yg sab state kat sini. Jawab sahaja dengan jujur tanpa berselindung satu apa pun. Kalau tak tahu pun cakap sahaja tak tahu tanpa rasa malu. Because I am a big fan of Grey’s Anatomy, from what I watched, it’s not a good thing if doctor missed an info.

Jangan marah marah

Soalan banyak dari doctor kan? Kita tengah runsing dan takut kan? Selalunya orang yg takut akan marah marah. Maka, adalah penting di sini untuk sab terus fokus tenang dan tidak marah. Cuba fikir, doctor tu jugak yang akan cuba sedaya upaya menyelamatkan suami kita. Memarahi doctor tidak akan membantu kita apa apa.

Sabar

Doctor atau pegawai perubatan akan ulang kali keluar masuk bilik. Samada keluar dengan soalan, atau keluar dengan berita gembira atau sedih. The conversation I had with the doctor was like this, it’s tattooed in my mind already.

“Puan, maaf, kami tidak dapat selamatkan suami puan.”

“Sudah try semua? Memang sudah tak boleh?”

“Ye puan.”

“Ok….. Terima kasih ya”

"Puan boleh masuk untuk lihat suami puan”

Sometimes when i flash back the memory, i myself could not even comprehend why i was so..i dont know...the conversation i had with the doctor when she broke the bad news...it sounded like... i wasnt sad at all..like i took this lightly.  

No. i was actually very very very heart broken. Shattered to pieces. Rasa macam nak bunuh diri sendiri ikut mati jugak. But i didn't.

When the doctor walked away. I said Innalillahi wainnailaihi rojiuun. And then I cried for a while. And then I remind myself not to cry. Sab tahan. Sebab sab fikir sab ada banyak benda untuk diuruskan dan sab tak boleh menangis sekarang. It's like fighting with own self. Sakit tau sebenarnya. But kita harus bersabar. Dan jangan sesekali meraung.

I gathered my strength. Genggam tangan, pejam mata and reminded myself “This is real. Face it”

So I walked into the emergency door. And there was my beloved husband, covered with white hospital blanket. Waktu tu kita akan rasa lemah macam tak boleh nak berjalan, but we have to keep going and tahan semua perasaan yang kita ada.

Berdiri di sebelah dia…sab pegang tangan dia… usap rambut dia…tengok muka dia puas puas… and I kissed him and I said… “Daddy…I am sorry….” and from that moment…I keep on reciting below doa for him until he was buried…and I prayed hard to Allah to let everything went smoothly for him. 

 

Beritahu rakan rakan, keluarga dan pejabat

Sab call and informed mak yg waktu tu tengah on the way with abah and danial, my younger brother.

Sab tiada ibu bapa mertua. So sab informed adik ipar. Sebelum tu masa sedang menunggu pun sab sudah beritahu adik ipar what happened.  Abang ipar ade dalam flight ke oversea waktu tu.

Sab informed best friend suami. Sab cari nombor telefon siapa yg sab simpan. So sab telefon seorang and then he informed the rest. Bagi yang sudah berkahwin, adalah penting di sini untuk kita tahu siapa kawan-kawan baik suami dan simpan nombor telefon mereka. So if something like this happened, they deserve to know among the firsts. Alhamdulillah, sab pernah ikut suami hang out dengan kawan kawan dia so I had no problem interacting with his friends.

Sab informed immediate boss. It happened on Sunday. So the office would know why I wouldn’t  be around the next day or day after or days after….  

Sab informed few of close friends that I could think of at that time.

So begitulah, and the words spread. Thank you to Facebook and Mobile Phones.

Bertanya

Jangan lupa tanya pada pegawai perubatan lepas ni kita perlu buat apa? and mereka pulak perlu buat apa? Sab tanya soalan soalan mcm ni:

“Lepas ni macam mana ya?”
“Mandi mayat boleh diuruskan di hospital tak?”
“Ade van untuk hantar ke masjid and kubur tak?”
“Ada apa-apa borang perlu isi tak?”
“Bayaran semua macam mana  ya?”

Pihak hospital beritahu yang husband perlu dibawa ke jabatan forensik.

 

Bertindak dengan segera

And since suami meninggal secara mengejut dan masih muda. Maka, ikut prosedur, perlu dibedah. Post mortem. Untuk mengetahui punca kematian. Mengetahui yang husband perlu dibedah….i was like dalam hati “what?! No it would hurt him”

“Eh, tak nak tak nak. Saya tak nak dia dibedah.Saya nak uruskan secepat yang mungkin”

“Harus dibedah puan, memang prosedur. Kalau puan tak benarkan, puan perlu report ke balai polis and dapatkan kebenaran hakim, lepas  tu baru kami tak bedah. Hari ni hari Ahad puan, kalau doctor tiada, post mortem mungkin esok and kebumi esok.”

Bila dengar macam tu rasa mcm nak marah kan? Sebab kita takut and tak nak arwah dikebumi esok. So I have to remind myself again to Tenang dan Jangan Marah Marah.

What I did after that were these and I had to settle them fast: Buat police report, Request Permit Kubur, Book van untuk bawak pergi masjid and kubur, follow through on whats happening in jabatan forensik, follow through on penggali kubur, pemandi jenazah, etc... 

Semua semua tu harus dibuat dengan cepat and I was determined to settle everything that day, before sun set.

 

Berjaya tak before sun set? Di bedah atau tidak? Ha… nantikan Part 3. Hehe.

Conclusion, have these traits when you are in hospital.

1. Tenang
2. Jujur
3. Jangan Marah Marah
4. Sabar
5. Beritahu Rakan, Keluarga, Pejabat
6. Bertanya
7. Bertindak dengan segera.

 

Love, S

Sharing is Therapy - Part 1

What to do when you are in tough situation. Apakah yang kita perlu lakukan apabila berada dalam situasi yang sukar?

Tenang Diri

Ok yang pertama ini sebenarnya agak susah nak buat. Sab pun memula gagal. Waktu suami rebah, sab mcm terkejut tak terkata sab ingat dia main-main tapi rupanya memang betul sebab dia tak bagi respon, pastu apa lagi sab menjerit panggil Mak sampai rumah depan pun dengar. Huhu. Pastu cemas macam nak gila cakap “Daddy…bangunlah jangan tinggal Mommy..Daddy…jangan tinggal Mommy”. lutut lemah tak terdaya nak bangun. Tapi lepas tu, kena marah dengan mak pastu baru senyap, tersedar, terus reset otak I need to stay calm I need to stay calm.

Boleh bayangkan tak? Boleh kan? Hehe. Maka, we need to stay calm. Kalau tak calm, kita akan gila meraung tak ingat Allah. Please. Stay. Calm..

Dapatkan Bantuan.

Lepas sudah tenang baru otak boleh berfikir dengan waras. Baru sab terfikir jiran sebelah adalah doctor and suruh Mak panggil. Kalau korang ade kawan2 doctors, telefon aje and inform them. They would try their best to be there and help, insyaAllah.

Lepas sudah tenang baru boleh ambil telefon and terus call 999. Tang ini memang sakit hati lah sebab support team suruh kita check suami buat itu ini bla bla bla. Sakitnya hati. Kita nak dia cepat hantar ambulan tapi dia suruh kita buat itu ini pulak. Tapi Sab tak marah lah. Time tu tak boleh nak marah dah. Sab faham diorang ikut prosedur maka sab cuma terus bagi alamat and cakap “Boleh terus hantar ambulan tak? Saya memang dah tak tau nak buat apa tak boleh fikir dah ni.”

At the same time abah sab pun call ambulan. Ambulan dari tempat kerja dia kot.

So that morning, ada dua ambulan yang sampai. Yg sab call sampai lambat. Yg abah call sampai cepat.

Dokumen Penting

Sab capai wallet husband and purse sendiri and ikut Ambulan bawa husband ke HSI. Manalah tau pihak pihak berkenaan nak tengok IC ke ape ke… and manalah tau kita kena bayar apa apa ke.. so jangan lupa ya. And Alhamdulillah I brought along the IC.

Doa

Berdoa berdoa berdoa. In your heart. Or with your lips. Just keep on making doa. That’s what I did when I was in the ambulance. I didn’t know whether husband would be ok or not. All I know was I kept on praying in my heart for forgiveness from Allah… for husband to be OK and… if it’s not OK for Allah to give me strength to go through the situation.

Alhamdulillah I managed to stay calm in the end.

Alhamdulillah neighbors came and helped.

Alhamdulillah traffic was good and smooth.

Alhamdulillah for His strength in me.

 

So that’s it. What to do when you are in tough situation:

1. Keep Calm
2. Seek Help
3. Important Documents
4. Doa

I guess it can be applied in any situation.

Stay tuned for Part 2.

*smiles*

Love, S

Wide Awake

It's 12.46 AM and i am still wide awake i can't sleep. I don't know why. Usually i slept early.

Watching Hanee's sleeping face makes me smiles. 90% ikut muka Daddy. Bibir mungil. Bulu mata panjang. Pipi pau. Muka bulat. But no dimple like Mommy. Huhu. But It's okay. =) Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah.

Just installed a blogger app for mobile. This post is made from the app. I just wanna try the app and see how it goes.

I checked some of the blogs which i used to follow..some of them have stopped writing...since 2009..2012.. Some still writes but not as often as they used to. =) I understood...semua sudah bekerja and ada yg sudah berkahwin...so..ya...we dont have time to write anymore... hehe.

Hmm. I plan to write about the experience of losing a loved one...of giving birth...of struggles as single mother..of everything that we have experienced. =)

Please do not get me wrong. Bukannya nak menyedihkan diri dengan ingat perkara lepas. No no... sharing all those makes me happy and i hope we can learn something from it too. I know whats past is past and i need to move on. Hey, this is me moving on lah ni. Sebab dah start blogging. Haha.

Please wait patiently for the stories or experience, ya?

Take care all of you. Good night.

Love,
S